It will probably work itself out

Times are certainly uncertain at this moment.

Hard to say which way is up, down or sideways.

Sitting still or lying down, the world still seems to be spinning.

Spinning out of or into control, hard to say which.

Information is flooding in, no damn gates to control the flow.

It's funny, a few months ago in a land that seems so far, far, far away I made a comment on social media about 2020 being the year of showing up. And yet here we are, talking about this idea of "social distancing" and being told to stay in our own spaces for the sake of the general public's well being. Ironic if I do say so myself.

I saw someone suggest we refer to this response not as "social distancing" but "physical distancing." That in moments like these, we rely on our social networks more than ever and to suggest that we abandon those even for the smallest of timeframes could very well jeaoprdize our own sanity and overall mental health. I couldn't agree more. No matter how much I may want to lock myself inside my own home and hide under the covers, I owe it to myself and those I love to continue showing up.

While my individual world has only been impacted in the most recent of days, it feels like months. There are moments I feel so far away...so buried...so paralyzed by fear. Not a fear of getting sick but of the unknown. Fortunately for me, I'm surrounded by people who refuse NOT to show up. They remind me that the things that are the most important to me in my life are largely unaffected. That there is now perhaps more time to spend paying attention to the things that mean the most. Music, writing, meaningful conversations, time outdoors, intentional focused time with my partner in crime in this life (not real crime, the metaphorical kind). Things that have been on the shelf for so long that blowing the dust off of them will likley send me into a COVID-19 like coughing fit. From which I'm sure I will likely recover just fine.

It's time to show up...for others...for myself.

And like I said, it will probably work itself out.